so right now i am working on a new story. but its more a book i wrote a few chapters today. but so far its nothing major. i dont know if ill post it or not but well see. but thats really all i can think to put. i def have been working on alot of artistic things hell with all the time i have on my hands id be disappointed if i didn't do something

iam really bored... and ive been taking random photos for the last hour. i kinda miss my old photography days i kinda want to get back into that but i just have a crapy digital camera. dont know i cant seem to write stuff and i really want to express myself somehow but i dont know how.... bah lol anyway i posted some stuff today... it was kinda fun to mess with that stuff.

so i haven't updated this journal in forever. partially because i haven't been able to sit down and write anything in about two years :-/ lately I've been really beaten up hell down in the dumbs a lot. I've found a letter from an old ex that i keep reading over and over for some reason... I've gotten to where i miss her a lot and thats never happened before. eh things have gotten weird for me lately i wish that i could sit and write out I am going to just try and write out whats on my mind and no matter what keep it force myself to keep it. I've got to do something not being able to write is killing me... i find myself looking back into the past watching different things and thinking about my old friends... maybe ll try to write off that.. eh i don't know... if anyone has any idea for anything to write please give me something heh maybe if i get a completely random idea ill be able to write something. eh i don't know heh

i sit down to write something and every single time i end up deleting it and not posting anything or writing anything. for some reason every single time i write i cant get up the courage or what ever to actually write and i hate that... ive always delt with things by writing and now i cant seem to do that... what the hell am i suppose to do.... i haven't written anything and actually been able to post it in months... almost a year even... GRRR i dont know what to do at the momment....

all i want to say is that i HATE WRITERS BLOCK grrrr